So i am getting sick. :( I have the sniffles and the sneezes. Also my head is congested. It sucks. It also makes my bipolar worse because my head feels funny on top of the bipolar part. Yes it is sometimes grueling.

I feel different. At first I thought I was confused but then I realized there's nothing to be confused about. Maybe I just feel different because i'm sick.

Not much is going on besides homework. I start homework every day after three. I go to the coffee shop to do work. I'm usually on msn pretty much every day most of the day. Just sometimes I'm busy doing homework and don't talk much.

I'm enjoying my class a lot. I like the class on InDesign the best because I enjoy my homework the most. I also enjoy the other classes i'm taking. I like doing the English essays. And I like going to Interior Design class.

My brother now goes to UCSB. I like when he comes home every so often and visits us. He's doing well. Enjoying his classes and making friends.

I miss him but I get over it especially since this arrangement means more time with my mom. Though not much more because she works all the time. Basically it means meal times and when she drives me places.

I do miss him a good deal though sometimes.

actually i'd rather stay in school.....

so I have been forming plans.

I plan to move into the program Sanctuary (for people with illnesses like me) even though it costs enormous amounts. 75 thousand a month.

Now my dad says i should take a year or something off of school if i'm going to do that. I think i'm going to say I will take a year off if you guys pay for it!

Then during the year I will visit my grandparents in washington and then by next summer I will move to washington.

This all may seem fluffy but it's actually very plausible in my current position.

pros: Sanctuary is supposed to be a life changing experience for someone like me. It is also in spectacular down town santa barbara. Washington is absolutely gorgeous and my grandparents live there if i need support, so does my aunt. I will get my independence!

cons: Sanctuary is super expensive. A move to washington might be a hard thing to convince the parents of.

Basically there are more pros then cons. I think it's a good idea.

Wooohoo. I passed freshmen year. I officially congratulate myself. And i'm very proud to announce that I will be moving on in College and life.

This year was great. The end of the year definitely was. I entered showcase (an art competition that I will find out the results around the 21st) and I passed both my finals. During the year I worked my ass off and it all paid off. I loved the digital projects I did in both classes. I also enjoyed meeting new and interesting people. And I became friends with some of them. Some of them were asseholes and still are. A couple of them I had crushes on and one even liked me back but he is traveling all summer and it wasn't going to work out. *is sad* Well fortunately i will meet hot Italian chaps in Italy.


Another note, I plan on finding an apartment before I travel and move in after I come back.

I'm going on LOA probably tomorrow from the White Tower (DM). I'm not sure for how long. It is Indefinite. I need to focus on end of the year exams and my end of the year portfolio. I need to pass otherwise i'm not aloud to move out like I want to. I'm also traveling in June and am very excited. Basically I need to focus on other things besides The White Tower. I will be bach!

AND any Red can reach me while i'm on LOA: my msn, lemondewdrop@hotmail.com. Please tell me who you are when you add me if you're not already added!

- Narina

I have come to realize that a life without romance is not necessarily a bad thing. I find that my life without romance is much much less complicated than a life with romance. Of course if I did take the time to learn about romance and become familiar with it I might not need to worry about how complicated or uncomplicated a life without romance is. At the moment I do not have time to read romance novels to boot with the school work i'm being assigned along with other books I have left on my bookshelf waiting to be read for the first time! However I may ask my friend Kayla, who read a lot of romance novels in HS, for a suggestion on which romance books to start on in case I ever feel the need.

I tend to find audiobooks very useful. Basically I can read while I do hw on the computer using photoshop or any other digital software. Reading in this case meaning listening to the audiobook. The good thing about audiobooks is they are a fair amount cheaper than regular books.

I have become a huge fan of instant watch on netflix.com. The way to do it is you find a movie that you like (it can be either instant watch or not) and then you click on the button that says it will show you more movies like it. Thats how I navigate throughout the site. I usually watch an instant watch on netflix everynight. It helps me fall asleep.

I have developed a system. I go on facebook once every two weeks. That way I get time to think about what i'm going to write and according to my therapist, being on facebook isn't all that healthy. I go on fanstory various amounts of time each week. However I give myself time to think about how i'm going to reply to the reviews and how i'm going to fix up my piece of writing thats being reviewed.

I usually have to drink coffee in the morning to be able to stay awake because my medication puts you to sleep. I actually like coffee. I'm very glad there is a coffee shop right by my house.

I tend to do homework at the coffee shop or either one of the libraries. Or at home.

I like to play computer games to get my mind off things. I recently got a game for my mac and I've played it some. Its fun!

DM News
I am now the Red Ajah Reporter. I do the newsletter. I'm very excited! :)

I realized I have been trying to be more agreeable then I am. One friend says she is definitely not excited about school. So I try and agree with her. Another friend says she's really excited about school. So I try and agree with her. Of course we've now run into a problem. I can't possibly be down in the dumps about school and really really excited about school at the same time! I decided that instead of being agreeable I would go with what I felt. And first I couldn't de cide but then I did once I found my class.

Then I felt that I was excited about school!

Well we will have to see what happens on Monday.

Right now I feel like someone should tar, feather me, and leave me somewhere in a ditch to rot. I feel like someone should call me names and damn me as a heathen. Thankfully this has not happened. And I am very grateful to my other friends for being very supportive of me.

What about my rep? Who cares it was probably like that anyways right? ;)

For the past month I have discovered the site that has taken up most of the time. It is called Fanstory. Up until now I have been able to enter the contests and writing prompts on that site. You enter those prompts and contests using member dollars that you earn from reviewing members writing. Now at the beginning of January and some of December I have developed writers block.

My writers block acts in strange ways. I can write things like livejournals and blogs (though i have a hard time) but I cannot write a single story or poem. I can also think of a story to write but I cannot go through with writing it.

I have neglected my blog on the SFnews site. I plan to write that blog today.

School starts on January 26th and i'm very excited. I'm taking Digital Imaging1 and Media Design. Media Design is online and the time is TBA.

I'm only on campus two days of the week. Mondays and Wednesdays for Digital Imaging1. Then I'm going to try and get a job at the library or the counceling office. Hopefully the dsps counciling office.

I was testing out a new medication called abilify. However that does not seem to be working at all and i'm going back on zyprexia. I'm already improving.

I feel like I am much more ready to got to college than I was at the beginning of the last semester. More mentally prepared.

I have decided that I need to get more political books instead of political magazines. Perhaps I should go to borders.com.....

And i'm trying to think of fun things for me to do as i'm not in school this semester. Meaning I have a lot of free time. At the moment going out to dinner with family seems to be the thing. I mean the other side of the family. My dad specifically. He's already taken us out to dinner once this week. He's going to take me too my favorite restaurant Chillies this evening. I was going to go by myself but he wanted to take me and Andrew out to dinner. Andrew has a cross country dinner party this evening so its just me and my dad. Going out to dinner is funner when someone is there with you so I invited my dad along to Chilies. He wasn't sure at first about the food but when I told him they have Mexican food there he seemed to change his mind. The only problem then was the timescale. He has a dentist appointment at five and I had planned for 6:00. So I said we could change the time and he decided that he would show up between six and six thirty.

Last night I went to Andrew's friend's house. Well they are really a family friend. Dairine picked me up from the house and took me there. Andrew couldn't drive me, he still has about a year before he can drive anyone under 21. So he could drive my sister and not me. *shrug* I get by anyways. Andrew also had a guitar lesson so he couldn't drive me anyways. He was meeting me there. He was there when I got there and he and Alex were doing homework.

The rest of the time we all socialized and watched the election.

I was shocked and pleased that Obama won the election.

I was shocked because the passed two elections were so bad I was almost expecting something bad to happen. I was pleased because I had voted for Obama. I had also sent out doorhangers for him through the democratic campaign here in California. And so many people helped make this happen. Everyone should be proud.

I'm glad that California went Barack and so did most of the U.S. I still have yet too see Obama's speech. I'll have to find it online. But i'm sure it was spectacular. And I don't know if any of you watched it but the Comedy Central station had The Daily Show and the Colbert show performing together. It was really helarious.

Anyways. I think i'll go to La Cumbre shopping mall tomorrow or perhaps later today. Its getting too cold to go swimming. I suppose I still could though....

DM News:
Just in case anyone's wondering... I did switch to the Red Ajah from the Green Ajah. I feel more at home at the Red Ajah and I can't seem to keep up with the Green Ajah's activities. I've also always secretly wanted to be a Red. I'm enjoying being a Red and I really respect all the Red Sisters.